Sometimes You Don’t Know Where You’ve Been

A prayer henceforth…

You have brought me to the valley of humiliation. I lost my reason there. I was beastly. My heart was unfeeling. I lived instinctively. I didn’t think. I didn’t have answers. I didn’t know I needed. When you are a beast of the field you just exist. The things you need are just there; not needed. Just because an animal’s stomach hurts with hunger doesn’t mean the animal knows they are needy. It will either hunt for food or die. When the feast is over there is no thanksgiving but only thoughts of where to sleep and hide for the night. The damp dew didn’t bother me but thoughts of it now make me shiver.

But suddenly, my reason returned. The feelings are coming back. My heart is softening. I’m thinking again…reading again…seeing again…hoping again…believing again. I see my need even though the specific things leading to the valley are unclear. They must involve self-dependence and acts of unconfessed sin. Somehow it became about me and my problems. This subtle lie from Eden is still laying us low though we think we are on an upward trend. We are eating grass on all fours and we don’t even know it. King Theoden comes to mind as an example of Nebby and myself. I’ve often wondered how no one seemed to notice the change. I suppose while we are in the valley of humiliation that we appear alive and that’s enough. Or maybe many of us are in the same valley. It’s possible that we give a reasonable answer, unknown by us, in the midst of having no reason. This hides our current state until the valley has had its full effect on us.

I come forth today…maybe yesterday or the day before…who knows? praising the Almighty. One cannot write about this valley of humiliation unless he has climbed the mountain of reflection. How that happened is beyond his understanding. He’s just there. May there be continuous praise to King Jesus, the Good Shepherd, who knows his sheep well and how to get them into the fold and to keep them.

About Jason and Kimberly

Jason is the former pastor at First Baptist Church in Greensboro, Florida. Kimberly homeschools our three awesome kids. We enjoy being together as a family in wherever so long as we are together! Grace and peace to you in the Lord Jesus Christ! View all posts by Jason and Kimberly

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